lost
im being absorbed by the passing moments...days...nights...one in the same...so tired...so awake...so restless...this damn flyff! b4 i drew...wrote...did website. now a week has gone by and i haf nothing to show for it!!!
i dunno wat to say there never is ne thing to say...im just...writing...writing...typing...meaningless words-- why am i overemotional!?!? i try not to be but everything is a big deal to me. the moon is a big deal to me..itz so pretty...songs r big deals. words, pictures. ne thing! i can cry to ANYTHING and i mean literally....sigh....sigh...sigh...sigh...maybe itz like that book i read. i dont remember the title...that girl twho can feel pplz emotions so much that she gotta put up a shield...i gotta do that or something
friendships, especially relationships. all big deals to me. huge. sigh -_-
memories...but not memories. my memories are not memories..they are feelings.
and they all mix...and wash together...and there's this poison deep down inside...that infects me...and it spreads thru me...and all i can do is silently suffer...while trying to fight it at the same time
fly away
4 Comments:
I hope you're feeling a little better now hehe... you wrote that at 2 am?! =( That's what happens to me too, the later I stay up, the more emotional I get and it makes me feel very crappy.
So I just go to sleep, I listen to a few songs first (no vocals though) to help me get to sleep though.
...and I see some good things about this post too, within all the negativity. It seems like you don't like wasting your time away, and you wanna do stuff/be productive. That's very very good (at least to me).
Anyway, cheer up now! Cleanse that poison =)
12:11 pm
...well..i can help w/ the name of the book, Midnighters. And I think the girl's name was Melissa.
Well, pointless..but what else can I say??
Just dont force ureself to be happy.
eh?
Whether the emoitons are crappy or good, live in it. make the good things better.
seeker
12:28 pm
haha yeah definitly a victum of lack of sleep.
wasnt feeling so bad just reflecting, thx for commenting tho ^^
and no itz not melissa from midnighters :P
itz like this sci fi about...uhh mmm when this girl is like a spy and finds this underground city where she meets this guy...etc dont remember too well
6:42 pm
hm....
u know...it does sound familiar...but *shrugs* but a book like that is...lost in the chaos of my book memories...
seeker
2:23 pm
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